tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5895440453335552117.post4476466656284874335..comments2024-03-23T15:17:15.865-04:00Comments on calvin's story: day fifty-sevenChristy Shakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00106761191160700997noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5895440453335552117.post-75459196926248956712013-01-27T16:30:12.979-05:002013-01-27T16:30:12.979-05:00I'm also sorry, Christy. I agree, Elizabeth. I...I'm also sorry, Christy. I agree, Elizabeth. I think I hit it after about year 16 of seizures. I had rallied against them with everything I had, but at some point I gave into my body which I had decided I often had little power over. And if it makes you feel any better, I felt better after seizures in the water than anywhere else. My muscles didn't ache as much afterward and the floating of my mind somehow matched the floating of the water; I could be more at peace than when I tripped on land like a baby giraffe. Again, I'm sorry you're dealing with this, Christy. I'll be thinking of you.<br />~JuliannaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5895440453335552117.post-74365139253531004572013-01-26T14:38:56.899-05:002013-01-26T14:38:56.899-05:00I'm sorry and sad to hear this. There's so...I'm sorry and sad to hear this. There's something about seizures in the bathtub that are particularly unnerving and awful. Perhaps their nakedness and vulnerability -- I know how awful this is for you and your husband and for Calvin -- I know it because I live it. Getting used to the daily tonic-clonics is a weird thing, but I am sort of, kind of used to it, and only occasionally do I feel the sort of existential dread and despair that I used to feel. I'm only saying that so that you know it some ways it DOES get easier -- not BETTER, but easier. There's a resignation that kicks in, hard, I think and one's boundaries and tolerance expand. I could go on forever, but I won't hijack your beautiful writing. Hugs and kisses all around.Elizabethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03313726816776097840noreply@blogger.com