coming of age in san francisco and all i left behind there. michael. maine. marriage. devastating sonograms. hospitals. emergency cesarean. calvin. essential and unnecessary intubations. grief. relentless seizures, including this morning's, the forty-five- and twenty-minute ones. antiepileptic drugs and their side effects. benzodiazepines and their heinous withdrawal (calvin). loss. acute and chronic sleep deprivation (mine). diapers that fit (calvin). honesty. turning off the bed-stand baby monitor. tenure. finding a voice. partner doctors. conceited ones. despair. writing daily. palmetto harmony CBD oil. mothers and fathers of other kids like ours. curaleaf bud and homemade THCA cannabis oil. kick-ass nurses. washable bed pads. angst. the love of a child. onesies. attentive, understanding, open, reliable, responsible school staff. sabbatical. smellie the wackadoodle. the kindness of strangers. gratitude. less medicine rather than more. tenderness. slow cookers. slow-cooker chef-hubby. every single dinner he fixes. state medicaid. the ease of small towns. patience. good cries. walks on the beach on days like the autumnal equinox.
Such deep respect and love for you, your courage, tenacity, and love of that precious and dear, Calvin.ReplyDelete