missing you

Okay. So I'm missing you guys already, feel a void in my life after just a single day of not posting to the blog. I’m going through a withdrawal of sorts having not shared in words my ...

pride and frustration over Calvin’s behavior at the dentist, his subsequent 103 degree temp, his refusal to drink, my worry, his vomiting, his seizure, my spiraling dark visions of his health, my excitement over the prospect of beginning medical marijuana within mere weeks, my regret over having not started it sooner, my dread of leaving Calvin and Michael for a week, my excitement to see friends and family in California, my fear of being so far away and of Calvin slipping away silently in the night.

In so many ways this blog—you readers—are my lifeline. I suppose I’ll have to wean myself from it, and you, to a certain extent. Right now going from posting every day down to every week feels like cold turkey and I need my fix. So here it is. And many thanks to those who’ve let me know you are out there hoping and dreaming and rooting for us. I promise, I'll keep you on your toes. Don't give up on me yet.

Here's a little gift from me to you:


  1. I found that I missed reading your daily posts! There is something very compelling and raw in your writing. I have to read it.

  2. I am going to miss your daily posts! Thanks for the video! The children were asking to replay the video because I have shared over and over about Calvin when I talk so they know who he is :)

    Much love,

  3. Love you so much! Even when you don't post everyday, I will be thinking of you and your wonderful Calvin! Much hope and love being sent your way! Super excited to learn how the Medical Marijuana will help Calvin. Hugs to you Christy! Have fun in California! Smile at the sunshine! xoxo

  4. Safe travels, enjoy! Thanks for sharing Calvin's delight in the music. You're all in my thoughts. Is there anything I can do for you to help while you're gone?

    1. thanks, sue. i think we're all set. as set as we can be. xoxo

  5. a happy suprise to see a post today and Calvin's fun with the music. Hang in there!